Merry Christmas Eve. I am totally missing my boys tonight. S is working til 10 (oh the joys of being management in retail). B is with his dad for the weekend because we had our Christmas last weekend with all the kids. I am happy that B is with his dad, step-mom and especially his younger sister (15 months) whom he adores, but I really miss him. It is funny that when B is here, things are so difficult, yet when he isn’t here, I miss him and feel a little empty. That is the way of the world I guess, we always want what we don’t have. However, I am focusing on the positive, I have a great son, an amazing fiance’, the love of lots of great friends and family, a good job, a roof over my head, two wonderful dogs and a fantastic future to look forward to. That is more than some people have and I am grateful for all that I have. Tomorrow S and I will spend the day with his parents and that will be really nice. Merry Christmas everyone, give thanks to God for what you have, as I am!