Sometimes it is hard to tell if I am coming or going. B’s cycles are so rapid in the past couple days that I feel drained. He is happy, then he is pissed, then he is crying. There are no obvious triggers, nothing helps him come down and he is just so angry. I know that my current back issues are bringing my patience level down and B has always been in tune with my moods and it is almost like he is reacting to my pain by showing his, if that makes any sense. More mom guilt, great. Sometimes it is just soo much, but enough whining out of me. It has just been one of those nights, so I am off to bed and will face another day with a positive attitude, as I have resolved to do. Tomorrow night B is staying with my friend so S and I can go see Kelly Clarkson in concert and I think the night out will be good for me. Gotta take care of the mom sometimes, right?